The rain came down in steady waves, a cool, cleansing presence that wrapped around him like an old companion. It drummed against his hat, cascading in rivulets off the brim, pattering onto his shoulders and rolling harmlessly down the waxed canvas of his coat. Beneath its protective weight, he remained dry, warm, untouched—yet he welcomed the stray drops that found their way to his face. They streaked down his cheeks like fleeting ghosts of memory, cold against his skin, tasting of the city, of earth, of something distant and unplaceable.
The air smelled of wet pavement, of damp leaves and distant chimney smoke curling into the night. The scent stirred something in him, a whisper of autumns past, of bonfires and old flannel shirts that smelled of woodsmoke long after the fire had burned out. He inhaled deeply, as if drawing the moment into himself, keeping it safe.
The streets glistened under the streetlights, rain pooling in the cracks of the pavement, distorting reflections of passing headlights into liquid gold and silver. A car rushed by, sending up a spray that caught in the wind, but he didn’t step aside. Let it come. He was already part of the rain, already lost in it.
His boots struck the pavement in slow, measured steps, the rhythm comforting. The world had shrunk to this—just him, the falling rain, and the silence beneath it. There were no voices calling his name, no hurried footsteps approaching, no obligations waiting for him beyond this walk. And for once, that didn’t feel lonely.
The thought of his brother arrived as naturally as the mist curling through the air. It always did when he walked in the rain.
Ten years. A decade without the phone calls, the barbecues, the good-natured insults slung across the table over pints of beer. A decade without the late-night talks where everything and nothing were discussed, where they argued over politics and football but never once questioned the certainty that they would always have each other.
He heard his brother’s voice from the past, rough with laughter.
“You’d never survive without me,” his brother had teased once, flipping a burger on the grill, smoke curling into the twilight.
And yet, here he was. Surviving.
He hadn’t been to a barbecue since. Hadn’t stood in a garden with a beer in hand, pretending to care about who won the latest match, or watched his brother smirk as he told some exaggerated story that got bigger with each passing year. The invitations had dwindled, then disappeared. Friends had families, had lives that no longer revolved around the past. He understood. He never reached out either.
Still, he missed it. Not just his brother, but the ease of it all—the way things had simply been, without effort, without the need to try.
His parents had gone before that, leaving the world in the slow, inevitable way that parents do, shrinking down to quiet goodbyes and neatly packed boxes of things no one knew what to do with. He had sorted through it all, holding onto little but remembering everything. Their house had been sold. The place where he and his brother had grown up, where their mother had called them in for dinner, where their father had sat in the same worn chair reading the newspaper every evening—it belonged to someone else now.
And yet, the rain made it all feel close again.
Somehow, standing here in the downpour, he didn’t feel sad. The memories weren’t weights pressing down on him; they were simply there, part of the night, part of the rain-soaked world around him. He let them come and go as they pleased.
A gust of wind swept through the street, rustling the wet branches overhead, sending a fresh spray of droplets into his face. He exhaled, smiling faintly, and pulled his coat tighter. The warmth of it settled around him, a shield against the chill.
The rain was his tonight.
It softened the world, blurred the edges, washed everything clean. It didn’t ask anything of him, didn’t demand explanations or force him to move ahead. It simply existed, falling endlessly, whispering its secrets to anyone willing to listen.
And so, he walked on, alone but not lonely, disappearing into the rhythm of the storm. The rain was his companion. It was enough.
It was more than enough.
Verbal Alchemy 